"I need help"
"Even attempting recovery is showing strength."
that was the worst pun ever but im laughing
do you ever feel like your future is slipping away while you’re laughing at stupid puns on tumblr
My future isn’t slipping. It’s tumbling
I JUST WANT JK ROWLING TO PUBLISH HOGWARTS A HISTORY
"I find that most people worth knowing are fucked up in some way or another"
the best of tumblr confusion
YOU FORGOT THE BEST ONE
god damn it
Yahoo paid 1.1 billion for this.
I don’t know which is better - sea pancake, meat sprinkles, or cereal water
a zoo of dogs dressed up as other animals
Wild wild weekend
So my cousin T came to visit me this weekend. Friday she arrived and accompanied me to class, then we climbed horsetooth. Except I didn’t realize that she was no longer exercising and was super out of shape. It took 3 hours (normally takes me 1), but she did it.
Saturday was the student competition for colt training. During salesmanship we spooked at the photographer, and ended up placing 9th out of 29. The riding portion had 2 parts to it, a trail section that had a gate, a bridge, and some trot poles, and then a reining portion that was a simplified reining pattern. Reggie forgot that she had ever seen a bridge or trot poles before. It took awhile, but I got her over it. And then we had the reining pattern of our life! We placed 6th in the riding portion. But those 2 placings combined to 3rd overall! And the biggest surprise of the day was that 3rd recieved prize money- I won $1000!!!!
Sunday was Easter, and T and I headed up to Rocky Mountain national park. I got a call later Sunday night after t and I got back from dinner that there was an Easter dinner with everyone, but they forgot to invite me. That hurt. I didn’t end up going though, I had to work on a paper.
Monday I went to colt training in the morning, and we got to ride outside in the field! I absolutely LOVE riding in the field, and it was a blast. Reggie was awesome. Then I skipped the rest of my classes and took T up to Breckenridge. We rode the gondola (jakie did too, she’s such a good girl!) and walked around town. Stopped at beaujos on the way back, and I left t at the hotel near the airport. It was fun, but i was ready for her to go. It’s hard to hide stuff like flashbacks from her when she’s constantly with you, and I barely got sleep (what else is new??) cuz every time she moved on the air mattress the noise scared me half to death.
I’ve also been thinking about what Nara said at our last session. She wanted me to consider checking myself into an inpatient facility for a bit this summer. I don’t think I can do that. I work SO hard to maintain a life, I just don’t know if I can put it all on standstill. It could ruin everything for me. Of course, ptsd could ruin everything if I don’t go. Decisions, decisions.